Saturday, December 24th, 2005
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11:10 pm
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Sunday, November 13th, 2005
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6:14 pm - ONLY cause alysse and heather told me to and they're awesome:
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Name 5 of life's simple pleasures that you like most, then pick 5 people to do the same. Try to be original and creative and not to use things that someone else has already used. Tag 5 people on your list.
1. taco bell and a movie with your best friend
2. helping a friend
3. drinking until everything is hilarious
4. class being canceled for no good reason!
5. knowing that when school is too much, i can always go home to my friends and my dad and everything will be ok :)
TAG! You're it!:
courtney, kelly, jackie, tricia, bonnie
current mood:  content
current music: i'm on shuffle. i got my music back!!!
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Sunday, November 6th, 2005
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12:21 pm
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Wednesday, November 2nd, 2005
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12:52 pm - hmmm
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if you read this, if your eyes are passing over this right now, even if we don't speak often, please post a comment with a memory of you and me. it can be anything you want- good or bad. when you're finished, post this little paragraph on your blog and be surprised (or moritified) about what people remember about you.
do it if you love me!
ok fine... do it cause you know me!
current mood: content
current music: none. my itunes broke. :-(
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Tuesday, October 18th, 2005
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11:54 pm - bored!!!
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Wednesday, October 12th, 2005
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1:48 pm - yay!!!
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awe pammies getting old!!!!
haha i love you hunny!
happy birthday to one of the coolest girlies i know!!!
current mood: happy
current music: sudden death in carolina, brand new
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Tuesday, October 11th, 2005
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6:29 pm - procrastination again...
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ok so i hate college. well at least the part of it when i'm awake... or sober. too much thinking for my taste. constant headaches are not that fun.
so how about that test from friday that i didn't know about? yeah i ended up getting a c-. then he decided not to count it. i was like "f u dude". not cool.
i was told to be a fortune teller because i'm really intune with clairvoyance. so yeah... sweet? i still maintain bill jack is nuts.
the party down at lakeview turned out to be pretty lame. not that fun. mallory and i left like 5 or 6 times cause there was nothing else to do. i saw aaron tho. i haven't seen him since i've been back. well, i have but we haven't gotten to talk. hes a cool kid. interesting.... hmmm.
theeeeeeeen i got to go home and see my peeps! it was so much fun. i missed them all sooo much. and pammie's birthday is tomorrow! yay for being old! haha. you know i love you pammie! and i can't wait til thanksgiving when all my girlies are back together again! oh yay! i've only been gone for a day and i miss them already. i, michelle, miss pam and alysse and heather. like whoa.
and i miss my dad. hes so funny. nothing but non stop joking the whole time. haha apple picking was the best. it was raining and cold but damn did we have a good time. and i even got to see my aunt and uncle that i haven't seen in like 2 years. i don't think my cousins even knew who i was... its all good tho. i didn't know which one was marco and which one was jimmy. not my fault. they grew up. i didn't tell them to. they just did it on their own. hehe. yay family!
so now i'm gonna get back on those papers that i still haven't done yet. uh huh. so yeah...
til next time,
peace out.
current mood:  busy
current music: sophomore slump or comeback of the year, fall out boy
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Friday, October 7th, 2005
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10:50 am - yay for today...
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first of all... why did everyone and their mother on this campus wake up drunk. yes yes i know i was one of them, but come on people! it was a freakin thursday night. never mind. i just answered my own question.
next, who the hell was gonna tell me that i had a test in research methods today? not cool at all. yeah i woke up and stumbled to class at 8am just to get in there and find out that we had a test on something i knew nothing about. i got a kick out of that one.
then i fell asleep in parapsychology. i was tired and he was boring. not my fault.
and i have 2 papers due on the same day next week. not funny at all. 4-5 pages on witchcraft for american experience and 10-12 pages on dream interpretation in relation to psi, clairvoyance, and precognition. by the way did that last sentence make me sound really smart? hehe i love that!
ok now i have to go to class... again.
yay college!
haha ok and i can't wait to go home this weekend and see all my awesome friends!!!!
i miss them like thiiiiiiiiiis much. hehe i heart heather and pammie and alysse!!!
and the party at lakeview tonight is gonna rock everyones world!!!
peace out kiddies
current mood: good
current music: i'm on shuffle
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Monday, October 3rd, 2005
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10:46 pm - uh huh
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Wednesday, September 28th, 2005
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7:43 pm - bored...........
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Saturday, September 24th, 2005
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1:24 pm - feeling like no one gives a shit
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i don't get it. when i was home my friends from school missed me like crazy. and i missed them more. and we let each other know it. now i'm at school. and it hurts that my friends from home don't miss me like i miss them. but i feel like they don't miss me. i've talked to heather a bunch of times. i miss her so much. but what about my other friends. all i read about in their journals is how much they miss each other. and i don't wanna get hit with the whole "you don't seem to miss us" crap cause i do. i've just noticed that every time there is a list of people that are missed, my name is never on it. that hurts. i feel left out. i always feel left out in that group. and when someone has a problem, you know who you are, who did they come to. she even said that i was the one that she knew would help. but no one misses me. just because i don't make a list of all the people i wish i could see right now doesn't mean i don't miss them. and they might just feel the same way. but it hurts more when the people that you think are your friends all miss each other and not you. maybe i'm reading a bit to much into this. i don't know. i've just been feeling like shit for the past few days and i know this is one of the biggest reasons.
sorry about this but the thing that set me off was reading pam's entry. as i read it i got so happy. i love that shes so happy right now. i want that happiness for everyone i know. but at the end of the entry, she missed heather and alysse. i just don't see how her entry could fill me up with so much happiness and then bring me back down so quickly. i'm glad that shes happy and its good that shes letting alysse and heather know how she feels but i can't help like feeling that i'm left out. in fact, i felt that way all summer. i just want to know once and for all where i fall in this whole mess. i miss my friends too. i just wish i could be missed the way i miss them.
thats it. i'm done.
sorry.
current mood:  lonely
current music: silence
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Sunday, September 18th, 2005
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6:02 pm - what the hell else would an alcoholic do on a saturday night?
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so.....
yeah the party last night was freakin sweet. turned out to be a long night but it was worth it. we all deserved it. pregamed in my room. i was shitfaced in no time. couldn't find the door. couldn't stand up for that matter. tried to sober up a bit. eventually made it down to lakeview. got drunk again. decided at the beginning of the night that i was going to get hammered and no one was gonna stop me. i think i completed my mission. got to the point where i couldn't really balance. stopped for a bit. i hate how fast i sober up. its just not cool. things stopped spinning so i got another drink. drank to the point of almost getting sick. todd is my hero for being there. i have no clue what would have happened if he hadn't been there for me... sobered up, yet again, and stopped for the night. met a cool kid named nick. he loves movies too. we were talking for ever. good times. courtney is the coolest person in the world for being our dd. i liked not having to sober up to drive everyone home. but she was awesome and carried everyone around and put up with our drunkenness. thumbs up to her. made it back to the room in one piece. mallory had to sleep in the middle of the floor. there was no way in hell i was lifting her into her bunk. so yeah... that was at like 2am. this whole thing started at 8. yep... so i woke up this morning at 10:30. no clue how i did it but i didn't have a hangover at all. i like when that happens.
so fun times were had by all. i think pretty much all of my friends showed up. it was great. mallory, jess, courtney, kelly, jackie, christina, amy, sterling, joe, amanda, todd, justin, keri, barry, cliff... it was just great. pretty much every one got drunk and had a ball. no comment on what happened upstairs int he bedroom. haha oly shit. if you want to know i'll tell you but chances are you don't. all i have to say is i love my friends.
ok so i vote we do it all again next saturday night!! whos with me?
current mood: good
current music: i'm not ok, my chemical romance
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Monday, September 12th, 2005
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10:28 pm - thinking again...
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i don't get it. i'm surrounded by the people that love me the most. they're some of the greatest friends i have ever had. so why am i unhappy? i don't get it. i have two great roommates. my classes are awesome. i'm making so many new friends this year. but i'm not happy. i tried being happy. it didn't work. mallory and jess and amanda and courtney are the coolest. i'm finally getting to know christina and amy who are awesome by the way. i should be having the time of my life. this should be my year. but its not. i'm nothing. i don't know where to go from here.
i kind of want to get in my car and drive away but i have no where to go. and i have no money. i'm stuck.
i have to find a job soon. my money is going to start drying up soon. not cool. i'm not going back to the kitchen. i'll die before i go back.
yeah i got nothing good to say...
current mood: depressed
current music: dead on arrival, fall out boy
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Saturday, September 10th, 2005
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6:42 pm - yay!!!
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just climbed the mountain. its still a bitch. but i'm not hurting like i was last year, in fact i'm not really hurting at all. so i guess thats good. and we even made the picture this time!!! sweet deal.
on a funner note, i can't wait to have some fun tonight!!!
current mood:  exhausted
current music: room full of wicked cool girls!!!
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Friday, September 9th, 2005
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7:18 pm
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Wednesday, September 7th, 2005
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8:16 pm - jumping on the bandwagon...
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4:20 pm
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i'm already tired of waking up early so i'm just not gonna tomorrow. good plan.
going to my roommate's house in a bit. yeah 5 hour road trips.
found out that dane cook is coming to unh and thats just not cool so we're thinking of taking another road trip and crashing it. sweet deal.
i just realized how awesome fall out boy is and i think i fell in love with them.
my psych prof is on crack.
i get to go on field trips this year which is wicked cool.
my roommates are the coolest.
i forgot how much i missed these people.
i'm seeing the same person everywhere i go. its starting to creep me out.
courtney is the fucking coolest person i have ever met in my entire life.
the prof of that class i can't remember the name of was drunk or has very bad balance. i prefer to think shes drunk.
i rediscovered that i can't read.
gas is wicked expensive.
and thats it. hows that for random?
current mood:  crazy
current music: fall out boy
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12:23 am - and she back in the game?
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so yeah.
courtney told me to start writing in this again. so i guess i am. cause courtney is my friend. and she told me to.
uh huh.
so... hi courtney!!!
ok i'm going to bed.
class at 8am.
yay kinda.
current mood: sleepy
current music: lbc, fred astaire
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Tuesday, March 29th, 2005
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12:11 pm
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i have decided to stop writing in lj. i don't know why but i just can't do this any more. its not like i have anything interesting to say anyway. i'm not even going to make a new one to start over like a few of my friends did. there is no point. i doubt anyone really cares about what i have to say anyway. its all about me whining about how much life sucks. not the most interesting topic, i understand that.
i keep saying that when people have problems, they come to me. i want them to keep asking for my help because i love my friends and i want to help them in any way i can. but sometimes its just too much. and all my journal was was me bitching about my problems. the one solving the problems can't have time for her own problems. i'll just overload myself. so i can just go back to the way it used to be. i will help my friends as much as they need me to, but no more about me. i am such a hypocrite. i hate that. i didn't even realize i was doing it.
so i guess thats it. i'm done. sorry guys.
current mood: sad
current music: going under, evanescence
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Saturday, March 26th, 2005
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10:32 pm
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lots on my mind. i hate thinking. it always results in this damn headache. i was supposed to go out with alysse and pam tonight but i fell asleep. i'm so sorry guys. i just didn't feel good. still don't. i'll make it up to you. bfs in 2 weeks. i will be there. promise.
going to my aunt's house tomorrow then my other aunt's house then leaving for school from there. aren't divorces wonderful. i am the only one of my siblings going to my aunt's house on my father's side. he was so happy when i offered to go with him. my other siblings didn't say anything about it. whatever. it doesn't even matter anymore. school, home, whats the difference. where ever i am, whatever town i am in, when i wake up i am still me and that upsets me. i just want to be someone else. anyone but me. but that just too much to ask.
i should be back at school around 5 or 6 if all goes to plan and i will have eaten easter dinner twice, maybe even three times. i can tell you right now, i will not be feeling to well.
what ever. i'm going to sleep. again.
( bored )
current mood: tired
current music: pounding...
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